Wednesday, June 30, 2010
i am neither depressed or stressed.
perhaps it is the time constrain.
or that i feel my little joy and smile is too worthless to mention.
feels like i wanna take a jar.
and put all this happiness inside.
and take a picture and show you.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Saya sedang belajar menggunakan Pagemaker untuk buat brochure syarikat.
Pace yang slow; amat. Tapi belajar benda baru sgt best. Saya sangat curious.
Tapi 5.30 p.m ini.
Saya mesti jumpa cikgu seni saya.
Art printing projek saya terpaksa hold.
Saya lupa formula bancuh paint.
Sebab tidak tulis.
Lesson learnt, yessir.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Giving pep talk.
Occasionally we editors are called to join in to listen.
Occasionally I rave because I feel its irrelevance.
'What a waste of time!'
What a silly girl.
I couldn't have been more wrong.
He discussed '7 Habits of Highly Effective People'
Today was chapter 3.
BEGIN WITH THE END IN MIND.
Have a mental image of what you want in 3, 10, 20, years.
Imagine the kind of life, relationship, kids, career, faith that you want.
Till you can almost taste it.
And move towards it.
Bos asked a question.
'Ayam nampak sibuk tak?'
'Ayam sentiasa sibuk, tapi tak pernah maju.Manusia pun boleh jadi macam tu. Sibuk. Macam-macam. Tapi lagi 5 tahun. Sama. Masih di situ. Macam ayam.'
Saya tak nak jadi ayam.
Terima kasih Bos.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
it has been two days
that i sit on this chair
doing work with computer
pretty exhausted with 'mundane' activity like this
cant believe i can survive a 9-5 job this long
but herre i am
head spinning though
adalah sikit rasa satisfied
that im working hard
i know im underperforming
the frustation of learning to become adult
boleh bikin gigil wooo
Monday, June 21, 2010
Where spring is approaching
There was always that feeling of anticipation
For the first day of spring
For that first bloom of flowers
Sign of life approaching
That dim sun, shining shyly after hiding for months
Shining as if its unsure whether it is time to shine
The leaves sprouting out
Trying to outlive the last blow of the winter wind- fighting harshly for the last time
I wonder if such description
Can equal love
I cant quite describe when it creeps in
I am (definetelyy) no romantic pun
But darn, falling in love feels good.
Stole my heart.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
why cant my siblings just stop growing?!
seems like Luke is the last one in the house. and he'll be all grown before i know it.
in 2 weeks angah will sambung master. Penang. another goner.
my application to do textile design in UITM failed.
takpe. i believe in hikmah.
tapi. aritu guling2 lah jugak.
apelah aku nak buat with the rest of my life.
saya kurang pasti.
life, as usual will shape itself in the most unexpected way.
as each day unfolds, im so grateful that I smile and laugh more than I frown.
except my housemates' wedding -because it was held in section 20.
the music was terrible though. how can you sing a break up song at a wedding.
most importantly, how did you think you can ever sing!
May Allah bless all of those friends who are recently married. May the marriage be full of blessings, romance and joy...
and may Allah help kami2 yang masih bujang ini :).
my colleagues are taking mc alternately.
last week was my turn.
during sickness i always feel so down.
very hard to maintain sabr.
very hard to be grateful.
rasa-rasa macam mati hidup semula :)
the days seem brighter.
food tastes better.
small flowers on the street makes me smile.
the congested air pun i breath in gratefully.hehehe.
reminds me of a remark an old friend made -
" i feel like health is the best thing God can give us."
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
I do wish I have all my old diaries. To read all my silly thoughts.
July 15, 2008 -i wrote
But I like my canvas shoe.
Dragged it through the snow,
The art class,
Walked under the sun
can almost smell
The time back then
can almost feel
That young, raw soul
Burning with anger, passion
Trying to understand
It’s still on the shoerack
Underneath all the other shoes
No one’s bothered to throw
Its there you know
For the memory
It holds for me.
Monday, June 7, 2010
of photoshoot Al-Ameen.
ini pics sure rejekk.hehe.
but the unwanted pics lah selalunya berseni.
projek buat ular comel guna socks.
obviously yg ni jadi hodoh.
hodoh tapi buat saya dan kak zai gelak guling-guling :).
tengok mata dia siap ada kerongsang hodoh saya.
hahaha. this pic makes my day!